Insomnia blog? Insomnia blog.
by, 01-30-2012 at 02:11 AM (686 Views)
So I noticed another user had a thread here about insomnia and dark thoughts.
I also have insomnia...I guess. By my count, I've seen at least 20-25 dead bodies in my career - 3 of those I watched draw their last breaths. Of those 3, 2 were traffic accidents and one was a stabbing. I've also been unlucky enough to bear witness to 2 very, very horrible cases of child abuse. So, yeah.
Now I won't put on my tough guy hat and pretend like it's never bothered me, but I think I should say it's never directly bothered me. Maybe it's weird, maybe it's callous but whatever...I just chalk it up to the game. That said, I often lay awake replaying the deaths of those 3 in my head. My issue comes when I think that could be my loved one there. As a result I often don't sleep well at all. My mind wanders.
Anyway, to anyone else out there who suffers from insomnia for whatever reason, just know you aren't alone. Try to stay positive and focused and block out what's bugging you. Strangely enough I do long division to derail that train of thought. Sounds weird, but it works for me.