I'm starting to want to quit, I hit thus point ever so often and just wanna quit, I wanna do more than let pl get in the way. I would miss my friends but I'd keep in touch. I'm starting to get depressed a lot, between family troubles, and just feeling lonely right now. Mainly because of my home schooling, I'm not seeing all my friends. I'm starting to get really depressed, and its really getting to me. Little things become a huge deal so easily right now, I feel stressed, and really upset, but I don't know about what. Something is digging at me, and I wanna find out what, but I'm having a real problem about it. I feel afraid to talk about it, but I don't even know what. Part of me wants to take a break and get eveything sorted out, but part of me doesn't. I feel like I have to play to pass time during home schooling, I really hate sitting at home and doing homework, and it's becoming unhealthy I think, but I really feel like there's more to it. I don't play much on the weekends, and as loser like as this may sound, it's because that's the little real life interaction I get all week, so I think that has a lot to do with it. I feel stressed, and again, very depressed, and don't know what to do. My mom goes to work, so she only has proposed the idea for me to go with her like I used to, but there wouldn't be much to do. I really wanna talk to particular people, but don't see them much, and am scared to confront them. Not sure exactly why I'm posting this, I guess I'm just laying it all out there, and I guess asking for adivce or help. Sorry if it's really vivid, I just don't wanna list everything that has been going on, some of my friends know, I'm just not comfortable posting everything that's been going on. I've been having kinda mood swings, I've been feeling really happy, and joy filled, then I feel stressed, and then I feel depressed, like I am now. I think I kinda know what's wrong, but at the same time, I don't. At all. And it's driving me away from, and to pl at the same time, if that makes any sense:/
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