Ok I need help. So im actually asking PL.

[Leli]

Lately ive been stuck with Insomnia. For those who dont know what that is, its when your tired, but cant sleep. And im on depression meds and they worked for a while but i noticed yesterday that no matter what I did i couldnt even get a hint of happiness and I havnt been feeling like myself. Im not ready to go back to school in fear of breaking down and about 5 times today I had dark thoughts. Real dark. And thats not supposed to happen when your on depression meds.
I dont know what to do, and its getting to hard to handle with no one on my side.

[dudetus]

I've had Insomnia lately as well but mine is because of stress.

For the depression I recommend a visit to the shrink. It might sound unpleasant but talking about problems actually helps and relieves depression. And he is able to give u stronger meds.

I've had myself as well some depression but I fought my way from it by admitting the depression to me, my family and to my friends. They won't judge u they will help u.

[TANKKAAR]

Contrary to what your saying, some depression meds wether wrong does, wrong type, or chemical imbalances can and will cause an even deeper depression to set in which can lead to even more complications. My suggestions for you is to remain on your meds and call the Dr. that prescribed them to you in the first place so that you can set up a second evaluation to explain what is going on. There are also crisis center hotlines that you can call if you ever feel like your slipping to deep into your darkness. Depression can be a very debilitating thing if left unresolved.

No matter what keep your head up :-) it gets better!

[Leli]

I've had Insomnia lately as well but mine is because of stress.

For the depression I recommend a visit to the shrink. It might sound unpleasant but talking about problems actually helps and relieves depression. And he is able to give u stronger meds.

I've had myself as well some depression but I fought my way from it by admitting the depression to me, my family and to my friends. They won't judge u they will help u.

Right. Ive never thought or tried that!(sarcastic)
....I am not myself....

[Swampy]

I dont really know you very well but Im sorry about the depression :(
I would try small things that are relaxing! See a movie, read a book, lay on grass and watch clouds! (assuming its a nice sunny day :) )
Think about all the possibilities!!! Start over in PL or take a break completely. Forget people, forget the past, forget everything, except what matters to you and makes you happy.

I'm happy that you brought it somewhere because thats a step out of it :)

[Paar]

Leli! Im here for ya girl, anything you need ask away.

[Leli]

I dont really know you very well but Im sorry about the depression :(
I would try small things that are relaxing! See a movie, read a book, lay on grass and watch clouds! (assuming its a nice sunny day :) )
Think about all the possibilities!!! Start over in PL or take a break completely!

I'm happy that you brought it somewhere because thats a step out of it :)

Ive lost interest in everything :/

[Zeus]

Leli, if you're depressed, I suggest this: Hang around those who make you happy. Even to the point where it bugs them, LOL! I've been in depression stages too, at around 14-15, I believe? Meds didn't quite work for me, but socializing did the trick. If you're with people who make you feel good, that's the only cure you'll need for the depression. Yeah, I know there is the possibility you will become dependent on them to make you feel happy, but if done right, they should make you feel confidant and happy even when they are not around.

Good luck! Pm me if you need anything :)

[Leli]

Leli, if you're depressed, I suggest this: Hang around those who make you happy. Even to the point where it bugs them, LOL! I've been in depression stages too, at around 14-15, I believe? Meds didn't quite work for me, but socializing did the trick. If you're with people who make you feel good, that's the only cure you'll need for the depression. Yeah, I know there is the possibility you will become dependent on them to make you feel happy, but if done right, they should make you feel confidant and happy even when they are not around.

Good luck! Pm me if you need anything :)

I lost contact with literally everyone who makes me smile and not fake it

[Zeus]

I lost contact with literally everyone who makes me smile and not fake it

You can't reconnect? You'd be surprised at how welcoming people are; you just need to take the initial step! :)

Also, everyone? :( Including me? :(

[Leli]

You can't reconnect? You'd be surprised at how welcoming people are; you just need to take the initial step! :)

Also, everyone? :( Including me? :(

I cant reconnect and not including you

[Zeus]

@Leli Well, start off with me and move up the ladder as you grow more confident :)

[Leli]

@Leli Well, start off with me and move up the ladder as you grow more confident :)

:/...

[NotYoCookiez]

Take a stroll down memory lane...

Remember all the good times in your life and in PL :)

Start off your new day like if it was new years. Make changes to your habits and whatnot.

A day being sad is a day wasted and your going to regret it later on :(

There's always something to be happy about... Your alive! and you have friends on here who cares.

[Redbridge]

Hey Leli

I'm Red and Parth (Apollo) has smelly feet so don't 'reconnect' too closely.

Seriously, though just having some fun would be a start. I've just had 4 months of sleep deprivation with our middle child and its a killer. I'm not sure how i did basic daily functions some days.

That combined with all the other stuff can't be much fun. My suggestion would be to do stuff to relax, exercise, walks, music, books, etc. sleep whenever you can at first and try to get into some sort of pattern when you can.

Remove the things from your life that stress you out, of reduce them. and surround your self with fun things and keep smiling.

Exercise and diet is pretty important, and lots of water to clean out your system too.

PS Parth doesn't have smelly feet really.... or I don't think he does...

[Airrie]

Hi Leli

We’re sorry to hear you’re going through a difficult time.

Depression is a serious condition and it’s important to talk about it.
Below are some links you may find helpful. As with all medical advice however, your doctor would be your best resource for help.

We truly value you as part of the community and hope that even in a small way, the fun you find in Pocket Legends may bring a smile to your face. :)

http://www.befrienders.org (http://www.befrienders.org/index.asp)
http://www.webmd.com/depression/guide/what-is-depression
http://www.webmd.com/depression/default.htm
http://kidshealth.org/teen/your_mind/Parents/talk_depression.html

[Bronxman2012]

The Bronxman will help you right away. First of all, do NOT go see a shrink. They love to open you up like a can of sardines. Also, don't do drugs. Drugs merely mask the problem; they don't solve the problem.

So, what do you do?

All kidding aside, insomnia comes from something unresolved being on your mind. When you are in bed, don't think of sleeping, just sleep. If that does not work, ask yourself what you are thinking about. The answer to that is your unresolved condition.

[MasterNaora]

Tank is absolutely right. you need to let your doctor whats going on/how youre feeling. The meds may need to be changed or the dosage adjusted. Sleep deprivation can have extemely serious side effects...ask lila she can tell you about a person she knows and what he went through due to lack of sleep. It isnt something to be taken lightly.

[Swords]

Lately ive been stuck with Insomnia. For those who dont know what that is, its when your tired, but cant sleep. And im on depression meds and they worked for a while but i noticed yesterday that no matter what I did i couldnt even get a hint of happiness and I havnt been feeling like myself. Im not ready to go back to school in fear of breaking down and about 5 times today I had dark thoughts. Real dark. And thats not supposed to happen when your on depression meds.
I dont know what to do, and its getting to hard to handle with no one on my side.

u should think happy thoughts and count sheep if u wanna sleep :)

[kallima]

Hey Leli,

I haven't met you but my heart goes out to you. Some tricks that have worked for me in the past is having a night time ritual when I'm unable to sleep. A hot bath, surrounded by candles, followed by chamomile tea (or warm beverage of your choice) usually does the trick for me. Also, reading really helps as long as you're not one of those that have to finish a book in one sitting; but if that's the case maybe choose a book that would engage you but not engross you. A Beautiful Universe is my go to book.

Depression, whether mild or severe, affects ALL aspects of your life and lack of sleep is definitely not conducive to overcoming it. I'll have to second Fryce's suggestion about getting active. Exercise releases natural endorphins in your body and not only improves physical well-being but mental health as well.

Many of my friends have been diagnosed with bi-polar and/or depression, some were able to overcome it holistically and others overcame it by finding the right Rx and dose. Both ways are acceptable, it's about what works for you, always remember that. :)

Namaste

[csb]

Exercise at least 4 times per week helps a lot with the Insomnia.

Depression used to bother me when I was younger because people seem the think that everyone is supposed to be happy all the time. So, it would seem that not being happy is a bad thing. At some point, i decided that not being happy was fine, and in fact it made sad music sound better.

If I don't want to be sad, there are many things I could do about it. For example, helping other people seems to help, because I think a lot of sadness comes from too much self-focus, and helping others changes my thinking. It might be something little like helping a friend wash his car, or just go for a walk in a park and pick up trash along the way so I feel like I'm helping out.

Also, not having any hope for the future can be problematic. People need hope that they will have a good future. When I was younger I became a Christian, and that erased all lack of hope issues I may have had.

I never took any meds; fortunately it wasn't popular to drug kids when I was young. Otherwise, I sure my mom would have kept me drugged. That would have been a bad thing.

Like I said, depression just makes sad music sound better. So, I view depression as a good opportunity to listen to music. And, I ride my mountain bike a lot, so I sleep like a log. But, if I don't exercise for a long period of time (like it rains for weeks), then I end up watching TV until late at night because I'm not tired.

[Snakespeare]

Leli, to begin with, don't believe everything you think. For instance, the idea that it would be a relief to other people if you disappeared is a thought you probably have at times. It's not true. Those other people may seem to be burdened with helping you through this, but to not have you at all would crush them. This is the most important thing to remember. If you disappeared (you know what I mean) it would hurt them more than you want to ever hurt anyone.

The way out of this hole is to focus on other people. If you think about the idea, it will become clear. All those other people around you are in their own kind of pain, too. You know what pain is. That means that you can help them. This is a trick I had to learn, that goodness doesn't happen by itself, we have to make goodness and spread it around. Then it will work its way back to us.

I know you can't feel much right now, but when you do have feelings they are very icky. This is partly chemical. It is NOT at all a defect in your head. A candy bar can make you spike one way then the other. As you mature, the hormones in your body change and your body is adjusting to the change and it feels icky. These are not the real you! It's body chemicals. What the doctors are trying to do is balance things out, and it sounds like they have not succeeded. So you have to work with them to find the balance.

The food you eat should be documented. For a few days write down everything you eat or drink. If there is a lot of sugar or caffeine in there, this should be the first thing you target. Or you might find that it's OK except at certain times of the month. Then, during those times, look at the food and drink.

Of course you have lost interest in everything! You have something more important to do, and that is to find your balance. Treat this as your top project.

Repeat positive statements to yourself. "I can get through this." "Other people have gotten through this." "I have a lot to offer the world."

And I repeat, focus on other people. I can't underscore this more. If the world is ugly, there is one place where it is beautiful and that is when you do something nice for someone else. When you make other people smile, your own smile will happen naturally. That's the core of it. We are connected and when we make others happy, it makes us happy.

This is your project now. Everything else can wait. Nothing else matters. Working with your doctors, watching your food and drink, focussing on other people, and creating the world you want to live in.

[Bronxman2012]

Have you read The Bronxman's posts lately? He is very, very funny. He will cheer you up. His "jumping the shark" post is borderline "epic" and "legendary." And those Pocket Legends commercials - they are the Mona Lisa of online blogging.

All kidding aside, the nice thing about Pocket Legends is that we're one family. So, you'll get through this. We're here for you.

Seriously.

[Artentreri]

I've gone through some pretty bad depression stages, not going into detail, but I know how it feels. The only thing that helped me is interaction. That's it, not meds, not shrinks, not mental hospitals, simple human interaction. When you realize that people do love you and want you help you, your family, your friends, hell, even random people from the internet, you realize that it really ain't that bad. No offense, but it could always be worse. I mean, there's tons of people out there with nothing besides each other, and that's all that matters to them. Please don't be offended by any of this, I've just gone through this before, then I decided to run out on my mom at 15. Bad call, I was either homeless or bouncing from couch to couch until last year. But I learned something, and that is that people do care, if they didn't they wouldn't have fed me, given me a place to sleep, etc. So, just always remember, it could be worse.

[YYZ????]

First off, I wish you well.

There have been some great suggestions posted above. Please take a moment and really think about the suggestions and how you may be able to apply to your situation.

I cannot offer any advice on depression but I have suffered from insomnia for many, many years. I refuse to take drugs and the only thing that ever works for me is exercise.

Set yourself a goal to exercise. Start small if you don't normally exercise much.

When you reach that goal, celebrate the accomplishment! Post it here. I will be proud of you and so will others!

Then set another goal, rinse and repeat! Exercise has a lot of positive effect for the body and brain. If you would like some ideas specific to your ability send me a PM. I would be happy to help you set your first goal

Take care!

[slaveleia]

Don't feel bad, you're not alone! Everyone goes thru this at times...life can be hard at times. Follow the things said above...exercise helps even tho it's not easy to do it regularly. Just get outside & not be indoors too much, sunlight/fresh air does help a lot with your mood.