Hey Guys,
yes even I have to better take a break from forums and I believe it is the right decision to distance myself from the forums for a bit now.
I have personal and forum-wise reasons for this decision.
I am going through a rather depressing phase of life at the moment, things are not rolling how they should and I am actually only foruming and playing in the hope to distract me from these feelings and that phase.
I know it probably doesn't sound / look like I am depressed but I surely am, I'm not on mood to talk about that, because I'm afraid that it is going to hurt me the more I am talking about it.
I saw over the past weeks how all these really neat and well thought long posts have been posted in many topics (mad respect to that btw, please don't stop I enjoy reading through these everytime) and I feel like the useless fifth wheel with all these useless, unfunny and below the belt posts all over the forums lately.
I behave goofy now and I even started to troll,
I do not feel right about that, well, I rather feel really sorry for my stupid behaviour lately and before I do or write something stupid I better take a break now than later.
I have noticed that people start to dislike me and I have the opinion when even yourself realize that, then you better have to take a break and restart with a better behave.
I am really sorry for my goofy behaviour lately,
I am really sorry if I have hurt anyone with my trollish posts, please forgive me - I am not the guy that likes to make enemies, I prefer friends over everything.
I am really sorry for derailed / necro'd and whatsoever threads by me, I guess many people found that really annoying and I want to apology for that.
I guess my behaviour comes from being deppresive and the really high ego I began to develop, as said above, before I do something stupid I should rather stop a moment and come back fresh and with new pep.
No, this is no quitting thread and I won't list any names now - listing names is reserved for my actual quitting thread which I hope won't happen anytime soon - I guess I couldn't quit so easily anyway, because I have met so many amazing and loyal people, especially my kik - hubbies.
I'm not quite sure how long I won't be on the forums, it could easily be a month or even longer.
(I planed to update my threads tomorrow)
I really want to be a better person after this break, to everyone who reads this (*I had to write it twice, I prefered the first version but It kinda went lost*)
please take care, I want to see you all again alive and well when I'm back!
Cya,
Vik
P.S.: I might still hang out ingame
